Awareness pays wonderful dividends as does choosing happiness. If you would like to read an inspiring book written by someone who made this choice successfully I would recommend “Educating Alice ” by Alice Greenup. HarperCollins Publishers. HarperCollins.com.au
People never remember happiness with the care that they lavish on
preserving every detail of their suffering
Edward St Aubyn, English Author.
Whatever one keeps pursuing with their thinking and pondering,
that becomes the inclination of their awareness.
The Buddha, Dvedhavitakka Sutta, MN 19, translated by Thanissaro Bhikkhu
Circle of Light Spiritual Centre 